22 September 2004

Transition

I have been thinking a lot about the changes that go on in peoples lives and how they come about. Probably because my closest relationship is changing right before my eyes and i dont know how i feel about it.

This morning one of my resident's dad (who was staying with her in the dorms the past 2 days) caught me by the elevator on teh way out and asked me about how safe a school Drexel is. I am thinking "here we go... another rich white guy scared to let his little princess live in proximity to a black neighborhood" Just because people are black and some people are poor doesnt mean that anyone wants anything to do with his daughter. So i tried to hold back and give him the benefit of the doubt. I looked him in the eye and said nothing, waiting for him to clarify. When i do that people usually think about what they are about to say to me, so i do it a lot. But this guy had a whole 'nother concern.

He was worried about his daughter living in a building with 240 freshman guys. Freshman guys are the worst kind. They get out of their parents house and do the stupidest things just because they can. Stuff they would never do at home like drawing penises on the bulletin boards and other stupid crap. I like being an RA and i like freshman girls, but the guys i cant stand and have no patience for. Apparently the resident had gotten some pretty crude messages on her wipe board to the point where she just decided to take it down altogether.

So i was thinking. There is a huge difference between the mentality of a freshman guy and an upperclassman. Its the same in high school. Not so much for girls though. Here is where i would have the brilliant insight portino of my post but i am really clueless as to what happens in one short year to change the guys that i despise into the ones that are cool. Maybe any of my male readers can help me out on that one.

So like i was saying. My relationship is changing. I am a pretty high maintenance girl. I like to have my BF around all the time, i like for him to do and say things that make me feel good and happy. I feel entitled to this for 2 reasons: if you arent gonna make me happy, why the hell would i waste my time on you, and i am a really good and giving girlfreind, i think i deserve reciprocation on all my effort. SO whats been changing is that i dont see my BF and he still hasnt made up for our last arguement and i truthfully couldnt care one way or the other. He moved to a dorm in center city and its a good 10 minute drive to go see him, besides the fact that there is no parking where he lives. He has a night job and i am gonna be on co-op all day. We are officially in a long-distance relationship and it doesnt matter to me. And that isnt how i operate so i dont know what is going on in my head. So all this is to say really that things change and chage so mysteriously. I just gotta wait i guess to see if this is one of those good changes or a bad one.

2 comments:

mrsajw said...

I don't believe you consider yourself in a long distance relationship. lol. You're just ten minutes away, you just happen to be working separate jobs and classes and stuff. aww good luck.

Oh and I think freshmen guys are idiots cause they're tryna immitate tv and are also chasing after a whole lotta girls. then they realize that it aint all that it was cracked up to be after a few people wake up next to ugly girls, have a pregnancy scare, or end up with VD. but hey i'm thinking extreme and I'm a girl so I don't know what boys think about anyway.

Anonymous said...

10 minutes? My girlfriend moved to jamiaca for 4 monthes I still have 112 days before she gets back. I have a night job and I am a full time student. I think you'll survive. If love based on distance you two should still be crazy about each other. Try catching the train with some friends.

Freshman guys mature eventually, it just take a year. give'em time.