28 February 2006

updates yet again

i feel like something important is going on with me right now, but i cant put my finger on it. however, i have decided to start blogging again so i will be right here and ready to document whatever it is that is on my horizon.

it is perhaps that i feel a lot less uncertain about things than i did a few months ago. I have a future roommate, we are moving in together either in april or may (i have decided that no matter what my employment situation, i will be in philly for another year). i have a job, a super-crappy job at rite aid, but a job nonetheless. if worst comes to worst it will pay my rent.

i have new uncertainties too, related to my last post. but these are exciting ones like where might i go to interior design school? setting up informational interviews with people in my field to learn what i need to do to achieve my goals. checking out a whole new job market for design professionals and hoping to get my foot in the door. all these things genuinely excite me, though, so i am way less anxious than i was when this term started.

i think i just have a general sense of contentedness. i was depressed for a long while and now that its lifted once again, i feel like i dont really have a care in the world. like i can count on everything working out in the end. boundless confidence.

so, that was extremely circuitous. it really doesnt have much to do with what i was saying in the beginning. i feel like something important is happening to me, unrelated to all those things. as soon as i figure out what, you (my few loyal readers) will be the first to know.

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