Im not the type of person who plans for the future. im a pretty morbid girl and never really expected to live this long (i feel ancient at age 22!). i dont think i can really count on tomorow so i dont really bother.
but senior year of college will force you to face your future, as certain or otherwise as it may be. i was terrified at the thought of spending my life as a biomedical engineer and nauseated at the thought of making a real decision, deciding what excited me and what i really wanted to do with my life. Something had been in the back of my mind for years, but i was afraid to admit it.
a good friend of mine and a great teacher says 'i believe in destiny, but destiny wont do all the work. you have to meet your destiny halfway. you have to seek it out'. For once in my life i feel like my destiny found me, and all it took was some mental preparation. I had been calling 2006 'the year of destiny' and it has exceeded its title already (its only february).
so if you have been wondering, i have decided to go into interior design. I have developed a real passion for beautifying interiors and i am confident that i will meet success. For at least the past two years, every time i walked into a room, the first thing on my mind is 'how can i make this space better?' and i dont think its that big a stretch from my degree in biomechanics and minor in ergonomics. i cant help but feel that some of my closest family friends will be dissappointed in me.
I come from a clan of scientists and technical professionals. But i recently learned that i also come from a mother who made the decision i was about to make. Who pursued a technical career to please her family but had always yearned for a more artistic profession. And who, at 48, still regrets the decision and wants something better for her daughter, even if it means a level of financial uncertainty. i love my mommy and 2006 still holds a lot of suprises for me. I will spend the next 10 months actively seeking out my destiny, keep your fingers crossed for me.
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That's awesome that you figured out what you want to do (I still have not). I know it's hard not doing the "right" thing when it comes to getting a job, but it is a tradeoff. Loathing what you do everyday and have money, or wanting to do what you love and maybe not having money. It is a tough decision, but knowing you, I am sure you are making the right decision.
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