Your Psychic Friend

My friend has psychic dreams. She says when she wakes up she just knows that the dream meant something. I had a dream sort of like that recently. It was really realistic and when i was actually dreaming it i remember thinking "this is important". It was kinda like int he first Harry Potter Book where he saw something in the mirror and then he had it... I will explain (the dream, not the book If you havent read it too bad for you).

I had a dream that was ectremely realistic. I was somewhere i had been before with my mom and she had given me a new calandar to start the new year. I needed one so i was really greatful she saved me the trip to Staples and i started filling it in right away. I opened to the first page to write down my new years resolutions and i wrote them before i realized the page was blank. There were no lines or anything. The pages started turning on their own (but i wasnt suprised) and the first bunch of pages were blank (i was suprised abt that). I always buy the day planner that has a week spread out on two pages in columns for each day so i can make to-do lists. So week after week of this planner was missing up until sometime in March. It was a day between the 7th and the 20th where the calandar actually started and i was pretty annoyed that there were so many blank pages cus i had a lot of stuff to put in January and February. That was the end of the dream. I read that symbols in a dream arent really that important, what is important is how the dream makes you feel. So at the beginning when my mom gave me the book i felt greatful, then i felt confused when i saw the blank pages. I felt anticipation as page after page turned over blank, and i felt kinda shocked and relieved when i got to the pages with printing on them.

Heres where the Harry Potter analogy comes in. I didnt remember this dream when i woke up in the morning. I only recalled it once i looked in my bag for my new planner and realized that i had dreamt it and that i didnt really have it with me. I remembered the whole dream as if it happened in real life and right then i realized that it was probably important. So i am recording it here and we can see if it has any correlation to anything at all in real life. Or you can analyze it if you are into that sort of thing.

Back and Better than Ever

A LOT. i mean a lot. just stuff. a lot of stuff. But its over. the year is over and i have taken the chance to start anew. Everything that i didnt like at the end of last year, i just pushed away and i forgot about it. That was 2004. Things i was struggling to do or get together, i am just putting my nose to the grindstone and doing it cus thats what growing up is all about. I have gone through a lot in relationships and personally as well. I have learned so much about myself in the past couple months. Most importantly i learned that i am at the same time a lot stronger and not as strong as i thought. I found myself breaking down in situations that i never thought would get the best of me as well as suprising myself with my strength and resolve in situations that i wouldnt have been able to deal with just a year ago.

So this blog entry is about a new beginning. I will be posting a lot more often cus i am learning a lot and taking up a bunch of new hobbies. I will not be writing about anything that happened last year. Not much has had the chance to happen this year so this blog entry is short. I made a list of new years resolutions in a little notebook where i keep track of my progress towards each one. I have set deadlines and made sure i took the first step towards each goal before the end of last year so i had a jump start. This is going to be an amazing year, for you and for me too. Stay tuned!!