Changes

I guess this is an update post. nothing to introspective or interesting to write about right now. Actually, i have been thinking a lot about school and i am considering changing my major (i am in my last 5 quarters so this may not happen, i will write more when the time comes). Otherwise classes are boring, money is tight. I love my apartment and wouldnt trade living where i live for the world. I am around so keep in touch with me and i will be in touch with you. same as always...

Some Good That'll Do....

I was thinking recently (as if it doesnt happen often). I bought some roses from this young dude up at 34th and Girard by the zoo. Not that its some intensely good deed but it put a smile on his face (and bought me a compliment on my nosering) and i was already feeling really good but it elevated my mood. So i was thinking about that saying "the good you do will come back to you" (paraphrasing). I dont think thats quite right. First off, i dont think that anyone should do something nice for someone and sit back waiting for something good to happen to them. Secondly, i think the good you do does good for you immediately. Those little nice things are good for your soul. No matter how you are feeling, if you do something nice for someone else, you'll get that warm fuzzy feeling. Try it sometime when you're feeling down. The good you do for others is good for you too, immediately. No lag time, no karma involved, no waiting.

Dreamy

I had a dream last night. I've heard that what is important in a dream is how you feel, but i am really trying to hold on to the images from this one. Last night my subconcious constructed my perfect man. I dont know if its a good thing or not, but the guy in my dreams was actually the 'man of my dreams'... wierd right? i remember exactly what he looked like, what he wore, what he smelled like. He was hot, but not crazy hot. tall and not too tall. He had a lot of grayscale tattoos his upper chest and upper back and upper arms and shoulders. He was muscular but not chiseled. I wont go into anymore detail.

Anyhow, so if what is important is how a dream makes you feel, i guess i will write that down too. He and i only spent a little time together. When we met in the dream we didnt know each other but after just a short while we were inseperable. Like all through this dream he was somewhere near me. We didnt talk and there was nothing romantic about the dream, but anytime something would happen i would look around and he would be nearby and it made me comfortable.

I guess this post is more for me than anything else. I am writing my dream down so i dont forget it. It must be some pathetic side effect of being single for too long when your mind starts just making up guys for you to crush on.